Guess what? I'M BORED

If you haven't already, have a watch of my video blog I made
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=k6HLDM6TD6M

Hopefully, if you are having a crap day it cheers you up a little bit. The video is actually a prime example how I can't take anything seriously. I planned to film my chemo over 5 days to show you the effects that it actually has on me, something that I don't usually go on about. This time the chemo made me feel so poorly. Haha poorly Rach. I sat in darkness for three days because the light made me feel like someone very very fat had sat on my head at full pelt.

 Anyway, just now I'm feelin' sweet. Just bored. The excitement of my day so far was doing the KitKat Challenge. Want a review? ALL MINGING. Mint wins, Coconut can take a hike.
So I have three weeks to spend in this room, so far I've spent most of it sitting on my bed singing. At first I didn't have the balls to sing in hospital, its weird not singing in your own room, house, car. Now since hospital feels like my home I don't mind singing Twin Atlantic in an over the top and possibly offensive Scottish accent.

 Erhmygerd. Its my lerst chemo! I only have three more weeks in hospital then I am FREE. It seems like just yesterday I had turned into this crazy permanently stressed psychopath. Now I have learned keep in my worries and try to forget about them. Its like I have a worry hole in the back of my head and it is ALWAYS occupied. Its like I have a little nasty working full time constantly giving me something to sit and worry about. I'm trying to stop this and have some self control. YA NASTY.

 Although I am worried about slowly getting back to normality I am properly BUZZING. I have so much to do and I never want to sit inside again. I am excited to get back to radio and seeing my friends and avoiding paying for trains being my biggest worry. I just remembered a funny story about a guy I met whilst doing radio. Before I tell this story, I HAD NEVER MET THIS MAN BEFORE. He shook my hand like a normal person. Then in the space of 5 seconds he was behind me and TICKLED ME. I was like mate PAWS OFF. So inappropriate. Not even a tiny tickle, I was under a full on tickle attack. So I made a sharp exit. Anyway went off in a bit of a tangent there. I hope you are all well. x

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