This Could be Relevant to You.
If you are hear to read one a slightly funnier blog, stop reading this one now. It turned into a rant!
Being in my bed a lot with a tv directly in front of me, I tend to watch it a lot. Here are a list of shows which make my brain shout "WHAT IS WRONG WITH THE WORLD?!" The Valleys, Keeping Up with the Kardashians (anything Kardashian related), Made In Chelsea, The Only Way Is Essex and The Xfactor. Obviously, I watch them, but every time I do I think do these people actually exist? Seriously have never met people that are well and truly in love with themselves. "I'm f****** sound".
And obviously I keep up with the Kardashians but they are so self-centred its crazy. I have been noticing these things more recently due to my cancer wake-up call.
I really think that having cancer, I will be more thankful for what I have, I am a very lucky gal. It will make me appreciate everything I have so much more. Its funny how even the smallest things I've missed from my normal life. I miss getting up and putting on normal clothes and make up. I miss my friends. I miss eating at home with my family. I miss sitting on the floor with my dogs. I miss uni. I miss sitting in the kitchen with my flatmates. I miss food, good food. I miss everything!! This makes me extremely excited to get out of here, even if its only for a week, it will be the best week ever!
This is me and my Best fwend Rose (one of my best friends, don't worry guys your time will come). When we went to M&M World in London- we actually queued at the door to get in if I remember correctly. This was a good day. The thought of doing the same thing today would be even better. Unreal.
Also I am almost finished my first cycle of chemo, which means I am 1/4 of the way through! Très exciting my friend. I try not to think about the fact that none of my other friends have to worry too much about things like this. And of course I wouldn't wish this on my worst enemy, but it just proves getting an illness can happen to anyone. There are things you can do to prevent it from happening. First of all, if you smoke...ooofsh I can't. I don't understand why? Yeah okay fine you want to look cool with your friends "I only smoke when I'm drunk". WHY? Seriously the amount of people who have said this to me and I just bite my tongue and don't say anything. Smoking doesn't just cause lung cancer, it can expose you to many other cancers and diseases. Here are a few
Being in my bed a lot with a tv directly in front of me, I tend to watch it a lot. Here are a list of shows which make my brain shout "WHAT IS WRONG WITH THE WORLD?!" The Valleys, Keeping Up with the Kardashians (anything Kardashian related), Made In Chelsea, The Only Way Is Essex and The Xfactor. Obviously, I watch them, but every time I do I think do these people actually exist? Seriously have never met people that are well and truly in love with themselves. "I'm f****** sound".
And obviously I keep up with the Kardashians but they are so self-centred its crazy. I have been noticing these things more recently due to my cancer wake-up call.
This is me and my Best fwend Rose (one of my best friends, don't worry guys your time will come). When we went to M&M World in London- we actually queued at the door to get in if I remember correctly. This was a good day. The thought of doing the same thing today would be even better. Unreal.
Also I am almost finished my first cycle of chemo, which means I am 1/4 of the way through! Très exciting my friend. I try not to think about the fact that none of my other friends have to worry too much about things like this. And of course I wouldn't wish this on my worst enemy, but it just proves getting an illness can happen to anyone. There are things you can do to prevent it from happening. First of all, if you smoke...ooofsh I can't. I don't understand why? Yeah okay fine you want to look cool with your friends "I only smoke when I'm drunk". WHY? Seriously the amount of people who have said this to me and I just bite my tongue and don't say anything. Smoking doesn't just cause lung cancer, it can expose you to many other cancers and diseases. Here are a few
Smoking can also cause cardiovascular disease.and COPD. So if you are a regular smoker read that everyday and imagine what it is like for the doctor to sit you down and tell you you have cancer. Yeah, its no party. If you are one of those people who only smoke with your friends on the street, YOU ARE STUPID.
Sunbeds are another one that I hear a lot about but I don't know much about the effects they have on people. So be right back while I look it up. OK. So sun beds are more harmful than the suns natural light. The risks are so much bigger for young people (under the age of 20) as you are at "high risk". If you are under twenty you are 20 times more at risk of developing skin cancer or melanoma. "I don't use them that often", yes but you still use them. A couple of minutes is long enough and if your going monthly you are a good candidate for melanoma.
Sunbeds are another one that I hear a lot about but I don't know much about the effects they have on people. So be right back while I look it up. OK. So sun beds are more harmful than the suns natural light. The risks are so much bigger for young people (under the age of 20) as you are at "high risk". If you are under twenty you are 20 times more at risk of developing skin cancer or melanoma. "I don't use them that often", yes but you still use them. A couple of minutes is long enough and if your going monthly you are a good candidate for melanoma.
Please don't be offended at all of this, I am not trying to preach, but you have to admit its true and there is no way you would understand what it is like being in my situation unless you are in the same situation. Rant over. There is a page on the Teenage cancer Trust website which gives you advice on the symptoms of young persons cancer. Anything on that list, go get it checked out, and if it continues KEEP GOING TILL YOU GET TO THE BOTTOM OF IT.
I cannot stress to you how important it is to go to your GP if you feel like there is anything wrong. Most of the time they just bat you off with some antibiotics, but they are not always the answer. I had tonsillitis for 3 weeks and it wouldn't go away. After seeing about 7 different doctors I ended up in hospital because my throat was closing up and I was severely dehydrated. After that a blood test showed that my reds, whites and platelets were low. They slowly came back up which was very unusual and when diagnosed my doctor said "Ive never seen anything like this in my life" because I didn't have any symptoms at that time what so ever. And I remember the day I was diagnosed very well. After being reassured by the doctors that they thought it was "nothing sinister" I walked into his clinic as confident as anything expecting to go out to eat with my mum afterwards, obviously not the case. Shall I delve deeper? Okay! This is how my hellish day began. Sat in the doctors room for about 10 minutes being none the wiser of anything he was going to tell me as he checked my glands, heartbeat, bloodpressure the usual. He told me that all my blood counts were still going up. I was like YES I RULE. Then he said exactly
"I was considering not telling you this today Rachel, but we have your bone marrow sample back and it seems to me we have found some......."
"yes"
"some......."
"okay" *panic built and I start to cry
".....abnormal cells"
I had absolutely not a clue in the whole world what he was talking about. Me and my mum just looked at him for a while like whut you chattin'?
"What kind of cells doctor T?"
"Leukaemia Cells"
Cue crazy reaction. I can't remember exactly what happened it was a bit of a blur and I had to be given tablets to calm me down. No exaggeration, but I am pretty sure mine was somewhat similar to Rylan's notorious factor reaction. Except I was sad and he was happy.
Anyway, to those UV bathers and smokers I really do hope I have made you think maybe a little bit about what you are doing. I seriously hope that no one reading this is or will ever be in the same situation as me. But its unfair how I'm sitting in here never having touched a cigarette or been on a sun bed. I'm pretty much perfect to be honest, ho ho ho joking. But certainly don't just think "oh nut, that will never happen to me." That is EXACTLY what I thought. It can happen to anyone. To the people who socially smoke, think about it the next time. Actually think of me in your head saying "stop being a dumb ass FOOL." (This is obviously just my opinion, don't take it too personally)
Cos cancer, really....AIN'T NOBODY GOT TIME FOR DAT.
Also, in my last post I briefly discussed my drip machine but I didn't talk much about the noise it makes but its extremely annoying.
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